Feb 24, 2009

How does everyone make it happen?

We keep hitting road blocks. After 7 months I am starting to feel overwhelmed with the challenges. I see my surro buddies get going in two months or even less. I am still working on the doctor and after yesterdays visit I was ready to throw in the towel. The doctor is still willing to help us he just needs all the details and in detail and detailed even further. I totally understand his reasoning behind this but we are looking at 4-5 more months before we board the plane to India. I never thought this would take a year!

Feb 19, 2009

My theory on life

Finally my previous RE released my file (records). It took 2.5 months...and I swear he did this on purpose!! Of course I spent hours reading through it...sadly its not a good story and we were able to read about out last loss. Its the one year anniversary of this loss and after reading thru the file we found out our last loss was a baby girl. At the time I couldn't deal with the details and almost blocked out any information after the loss. Also, at the time the doctors had said that my ability to carry to term may be gender related and that they would follow up with me after the post mortem study. The doctors never did follow up and I now know that the gender issue is not one to consider as the first loss was a boy at 33 weeks and the second loss was a girl at 20 weeks. If anything this has cemented our plan of surrogacy. So onward we push... couples who suffer from multiple losses or infertility know that you take time to get over the hard bits then try to move forward. Its a choice we have to make... choose door #1 - the dark path of hopelessness and depression or choose door #2 - the amazing ability to somehow move forward and look at options. I have always said that how we manage life especially after or during difficult times is truly up to us. Life is full of choices...so make the best ones you can and try not to hurt too many people along the way.

Just a quick follow up - the boys in Boston are 9 weeks away from their expected due dates. Arizona are 9 weeks preggers, the TLC's are newly pregnant with twins. The Aussie crew are all in the midst of conception this week. The boys in Sweden are working on the ultrasounds after some great beta #'s . TandR are due in 5.5 months, CarrieJo has 23 weeks to go and the list goes on and on.... India is doing wonderful things for this world.

Feb 17, 2009

February is almost over!

Time is flying with no definite plans. The Aussies leave within these next 24 hours for India and all have had great news from their egg donors who landed safely a few days back. The follicle count combined hits 30 as far as I can count, so I am sure we will see some positive pregnancies out of this group! Next week FONE is meeting - this is the support group run by our Nicolle. Next week I am also in to see Horacio. There seems to be a communication issue (well in my eyes). India said I need test a,b and c and Horacio needs to get these going. We have opened our ICICI account to transfer money to India so Horacio lets get rolling!! This long weekend was full of very hard work in the basement, but the end result is that two coats of primer are now on the walls. We figure 3 more weeks until we are DONE down there.

Interested in the Family support group - talk about Dr's, adoption, surrogacy, the law and make new acquaintances..... see addy here to find Nicolle who hosts these nights out of the greatness of her heart www.nkplaw.ca