May 13, 2010

What is next?

We have taken some time to re-think the process. It's not easy getting negatives, especially when it feels like everyone else is getting positives. We are feeling slightly exhausted of the process and feel that our dreams may be too far fetched. But, we are not beaten yet. We have a surrogate who has just started bc pills for our June transfer. We have 4 embryos left and really hope one of them is golden!! If this does not work, we will have to re-think again and see what we can do. The free drugs we received last year in Mumbai are starting to get short dated so it looks like we will do a cycle depending on the outcome of the June transfer. Sadly, this is almost 1 year since our first travels to Mumbai when we though we had super embryos - reality sure got beaten in to us ...quickly! Those of you have cycled know that the cycle comes with some dread. Its not the needles, not really the drugs, more that all your hopes and dreams rely on the numbers and so called grades of your final production. This weighs heavily on us. Every egg retreival holds the next few days hostage wondering and waiting for the final feilization report.
For now all we can do is think positive and say prayers for our surrogate "D".
And where the heck is spell check on this posting page????

13 comments:

  1. Add my prayers to yours! Love, GeGe

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  2. Oh Kerrie, we have got to be in the same boat!! We depend on our FINAL frozen embie with transfer in August (shhh, being our 3rd attempt) and if that doesnt work, we really have to re-think it as well. I was thinking the same as you, if #3 doesnt work, cycle here and ship but who knows. I'm with you girl!! You are such a strong person, i envy you and am walking right beside you!

    I PRAY AND HOPE this is IT for you and mark so we can have good new together by the end of the summer! TRANSFER AWAY, GOOD LUCK!!

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  3. Good luck Kerrie and Mark!! Lots of prayers and baby dust your way for your next transfer...we'll be thinking about you...

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  4. It's your time...it HAS TO BE! Persistence in this journey ALWAYS equals success. We've got you squarely in our thoughts and best wishes.

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  5. It HAS to be your turn. I have great hope for this transfer ... sending you buckets of baby dust.

    xxx

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  6. Wishing you tons of baby dust! When this finally works you guys are going to be the best parents ever.

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  7. I hope and pray it works this time, guys. You have such faith and positivity - you really deserve for this to be the one.

    Baby dust, baby dust, baby dust!!

    x

    ps - i'm always here to chat about stuff

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  8. Hang in there Kerrie, it's just a matter of time. With all you have been through I know something GREAT will come because no one deserves it more then you guys do. I'm thinking about you. xoxo Steph

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  9. Kerrie and Mark, I know it must be hard to continue going through this emotional roller coaster, but it will be worth every last bit. As the other posters have said, it is only a matter of time and persistence. Hoping for a positive for you in June!

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  10. All the best! You have to positive! What they say, third time's the charm.

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  11. Hey, you have to do that next cycle so you can create a sibling for the twins you're going to get on your next attempt!!!

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  12. I just saw this update (I'm a little behind) after reading your comments on my blog. My fingers and toes are crossed for you and Mark. June it right around the corner and I think it is going to be rather "sticky". ;)

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