Nov 22, 2010
20 days of down reg. injections down, baseline ultrasound and FSH this Saturday (Nov 27th) and 12 days til I leave for India! This countdown feels strangely different than in the past, not sure why but it does. I think the difference is that this is the first time I am cycling and heading to India. Our past visits to India have been to sign contracts and meet doctors and do some tourist stuff. This visit comes with a minor surgical procedure, so I guess as exciting as the opportunity is, it is also a little scary at the same time. I will be welcomed into the "Fat and Fourty" surrogate mommas club at the end of our trip. This secret club allows me to acknowledge and justify my weight gains. In the last year I have really packed on some weight from all these IVF cycles, and the never ending negative pregnancy tests were not motivational in dropping the weight. I have accepted my body for now, but post India will be addressing it and looking forward to getting back into some of the nice clothes tucked away in the closet from a year ago (that fit nicely). This is my last cycle, ever. I cannot continue to do this to my body. As a twenty year old I would never have predicted that I would have back fat, and now, at my age and the curve balls life has thrown me, I have to embrace my back fat and know it is a sign of how hard I have worked at trying to have a family.